We spend our entire lives being asked what we want to be when we grow up.
There's an expectation that we determine a destination, an endgame, a point that we pre-determine as "it", the finish line. But the truth is that as living, breathing beings, we are constantly evolving, ever changing. Craving a challenge, or maybe just a simple discovery. I'll be the first to admit, I don't live the life I wish I did. While I'm happy, and full of joy and rich with blessings, I remain a shadow of the version of myself in my head that I'd like to be. So many things to like, to support, to do, to learn, to see, to experience...without the time, and sometimes the motivation or organization to see it through. Without the bravery to step out and step up. So, I'm on a quest for self-discovery to identify hurdles within myself, face them, and inch by inch move closer to becoming that person. Not a superwoman (far from it), but to fully participate in life. To whittle down that "bucket list", and leave fewer regrets. To become part of what a wonderful artist and writer, Stephanie Barnes, would refer to as "a noticing culture". I want to notice life. I want to use all of my senses and experience the wonder of this life. It means taking my daughter to a fruit orchard on a Saturday afternoon. It means putting an 'I Love You' post-it-note on the bathroom mirror for my husband to find the next morning as he shaves for work. It means taking an afternoon to learn something new that I've always wanted to try. It means turning off the TV (and the computer) and listening to the silence. It means asking myself questions, and listening for thoughtful answers.
It's all part of the noticing.
